Search me, O God, and know my heart
I finished Judges today and in the final chapter found an incredulous story which involved the people of God kidnapping women to provide wives for one of their tribes. The whole of Judges is about the cycle of disobedience to God, then calling on His help when they realise they are in real trouble and then back round to disobedience. The people of God go back and forth and back and forth, from disobedience, then crying to God for help. It is awesome to see God’s mercy as he delivers his people over and over again.
Going back to the kidnapping, it would seem that the Israelites went from one mess to another. They made a rash vow in the heat of the moment and then their actions, including fighting and killing loads of people, thereafter was about correcting their mistakes. What a mess! We see again something else in the heart’s of the people that overrides God’s commands, what appears to be tribal loyalty over God’s way.
I wonder what is in my heart that still takes priority over following God and doing things God’s way.
This is my prayer:
‘Search me, O God, and know my heart; test my thoughts. Point out anything you find in me that makes you sad, and lead me along the path of everlasting life’